In fact, I am not so strong
Days still unhurried lived, after you left, I still in place waiting for you, also believe we will together, every day can’t help but miss, miss you say that I am stupid, that I Luchi, miss those who have been to a place, things done together, thinking about those to me distinctly in the target scene to you is so long, read read, but hear news of your side has a new face.
For a moment, feel own collapse, remember I once said, you are my most important decision, I am willing to for you to break the unknown fear, even if the tears is going to clear up, care, because there is no shortcut to happiness, only the business. You said, in order to our happiness we all want to try. But now, you go, really broke the unknown, but I can not accept the fear, I need you, you are, where you are? But you never look back.
You go after those days, every day inexplicable sad, inexplicable tears, a person to face it all, not in your encouragement, chanced to hear we heard songs cry, go to where they go through to linger for a long time, even in broad daylight would, could not help but cry, I lamented the fate of why treat me this way, knowing you in my heart is so the component but still to you from me away. When you go, you feel like something is taken away, empty, no longer full.
After breaking up, do not dare to touch on all of you, afraid of you, fear will be more sad. I put all the things you have to send in their own corner of the corner, not to touch. I want to put all the memories of you from my mind, but I can’t do it, hear and see some things, I do not have to do with you, but I always want to turn a few bends to think of you. I with my friends said, Miss amnesia, everything about you all to forget, or let me wake up and remember everything, except about you all, my friends is constantly accused me, deceived me. And then decide not to think of you all, but very occasionally, all the thoughts of you always inadvertently come in my mind.
These days, do not stop every day insomnia, does not stop in the middle of the night secretly tears, and the next day must still as if nothing had happened to go to work, life forced to pretend he was very strong will not be these things in mind. However, all of this is only their own understanding. In fact, I am not so strong, but I know, no matter how I compromise, how good, how to change, you will not return to me, I try not to let myself become your love, only this. You think I’m strong, strong enough to hurt you.
I love you, but I do not know how to come to you, because you can not be together, I have been deeply defeated. I have my pride, I also have my pride, but for you, no pride, no pride also not to hesitate to. I have always believed in love, I can also come out of the dust in the dust, so I do not stop to pay, to forgive. I forgot the love also need pride, self-esteem need that cannot withstand a single blow. In addition to this you may never care about you will ask the pride I have left no other in this romance.
I love you, afraid of losing you. Yes, because I care about you, so you will leave me. I smiled tears when I was destined to leave you, to say that it was meant to be. You are the evaluation of the three years since the little bit and all the feelings of this. How ironic.
Two days ago July 7th is my 23 year old birthday, this day I waited for you for a long time, as long as you a short message I will fling caution to the winds with you, but you don’t have to get up in the morning, always go to bed at night, have not received any of your wishes, only friends and family to my birthday happy, I think, maybe you are too busy, I would have been waiting until twelve pm, after all, you did not call, and even text messages are not made, that night, I couldn’t sleep, then secretly in bed crying, I never let mom and dad proud too, mom and dad he has always regarded me as treasure in front of you, I put down the character, put down self-esteem, and you still want to leave.
On that day, I told myself not to think of you, but in my heart there is a little bit of hope, you can give me a phone call or send a text message, but you did not. A few days later, my friend said you already have a girlfriend, suddenly burst into tears. These years, has been waiting for you, waiting for you a lonely turn, but you do not, and I wait for you with her back.
That day, the friend to accompany my sorrows drowning, and the wine in the stomach, in my heart, like total across the layer, no matter how much to drink wine, are flooded to the heart. So worry more worry, I only know that I have been shouting to call you, my friends call me do not hit, you will not get the answer. Now think about it, I really stupid.
I don’t know when will forget you, but I know I will forget you one day, that day you to me has also become less important, I hope now of life to some of the more substantial and now work to more busy so you don’t have too much time to close to your heart.
These years, these days, I am also tired, I really tired, I am not so strong enough to withstand any blow you give me